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Testimony of Themba, an abused child and gang member
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Testimony of Themba, an abused child
and gang member
Posted: Fri Mar 25, 2005 1:53 pm
Here follows the testimony of Temba,
he is a sahaja yogi from the USA, you may have heard already
about him. His story of how he got his realisation is just
amazing, please read what he wrote, you'll just feel your
kundalini go up straight away!and so much vibrations (it's
quite long but : "ca vaut le coup")
"A Child of Shree Mataji Nirmala Devi
By Themba Spirit Kelly
From an abused child, to a gang member with a bullet in his
chest, to a drug addict, to a homeless outcast, to a child
of Shree Mataji Nirmala Devi, forgiven completely. Mother
has now blessed this once lost soul, Themba Spirit, with the
divine gift of Self-Realization and Sahaja Yoga.
On September 6th, 2002, I was arrested on an illegitimate
warrant and taken to prison. At the time that I was
arrested, I wanted to die and had lost all hope after
struggling with drug addiction for over thirteen years. My
first introduction into using drugs was getting high with my
mother at the age of thirteen, buying drugs for her and
then, after getting high with her, being kicked out of the
house by her.
My mother is a beautiful person, she just made a few
mistakes and through the grace of my inner heart, I have
forgiven her totally. Marita, I love you. Though I have
forgiven my mother, being emotionally abused by her damaged
my being and the hurt and pain along with making bad
choices, caused me to look for love in some very destructive
places.
At the age of fourteen, I joined the largest street gang in
America and by the time I was fifteen, I had been shot in my
chest and almost murdered two or three times. I didn't
realize it at the time, but it was the Divine Mother that
spared this lost child of Hers, and through Her Grace, and
Her Grace alone, I still live healthy and strong with only
one lung and a bullet still lodged in my rib cage.
You would have thought that this level of tragedy would
motivate a change in my behavior. However, it only created a
deeper sickness in me. After being shot and living, I could
now be totally accepted by fellow gang members. I want to
add that most brothers and sisters in gangs have great
hearts, but just like myself, they only need the right
guidance, Sahaja Yoga and Mother.
The paradox of my life is that through all of my chaos as a
lost child, Mother allowed me to have a number of mystical
experiences, and I felt vibrations throughout my body all of
my childhood life, mostly at the top of my head. One time
while walking down a sidewalk in Chicago as a teenager and
focusing on the sun, my inner begin ascended out of my body
in the form of an etheric wave. I didn't know how it
happened or who made it happen. All I knew was that it
happened. The closest I've come to experiencing this has
been since I have been blessed to become a Sahaja yogi.
I must admit that even though I wasn't aware that Mother had
incarnated, I always felt that some Force watched over me
and divinely intervened on my behalf many times. Even when I
was shot in my chest, a part of my self watched, or shall I
say, witnessed the entire situation. Even when I was
unconscious and blacked out, I watched that as well. I
remember telling my family and friends that I knew even when
I was unconscious that I was not going to die and that I
would continue living in my body. I didn't intellectually
understand it until Mother taught me about witnessing.
After years of success and failure, I finally just decided
to die on the streets of New York. My world was totally
crushed. I felt that this Aquarian child had let down the
entire planet. During this final period of my humiliation, I
caught a petty burglary charge. And after sleeping on
rooftops, sleeping in abandoned buildings and just being
plain filthy, on September 6, 2002, through the Grace of
Shree Mataji, I was arrested.
I know it was Mother's divine intervention because I had
made all of my court dates, but the police arrested me on a
bogus warrant. It is odd to have someone say that it was the
Grace of God that put him in prison, but in my case this is
supremely true. After two weeks of sleeping on the floors
and in cells, I was transferred to Rikers Island Prison.
One beautiful morning I decided to go to recreation. I was
the only one who went that morning, and the sun was shining
so brightly. At this point, I should mention that in my
seven years studying world religions and mysticism, I had
read a book that introduced me to the Divine Mother as
Mataji and I was obsessed and in love with this concept.
Even though I didn't know about Shree Mataji, I began
worshipping and praying to God as Mother. Therefore, on this
beautiful morning in the prison yard, I began longing and
crying like a baby in gratitude to The Mother. I couldn't
believe that SHE had spared me once again, and the tears
came through me like the ocean. I truly couldn't believe
that through all of my crap, Mother had once again saved a
wretch like me. As I cried, I sang one of my favorite songs
by Chicago," Oooh oooh oooh ooh, now Mother please don't
go.”This caused me to cry even deeper, because I love
devotional singing.
After this experience in the prison yard with Mother, I felt
totally free and had completely forgiven myself. I went back
to the dorm and began meditating with a white sheet around
me. Brothers in my dorm began gravitating towards me and
asking me questions about meditation. I was so humbled and
surrendered that I just opened my arms to everyone including
correctional officers. Shortly after that I stopped smoking
cigarettes and then my inner relationship with Mother
intensified. I was teased a little bit but I didn't care.
Mother was spiritually baiting me the whole time, and I had
a deep longing to see Her Face. Being Her child, it was only
natural to want to see my Mother's Face. Lo and behold on
that same day, while trying to convince a correctional
officer that yoga wasn't the religion of the devil, one of
the brothers in the dorm who knew I was into yoga and
meditation, calls me to the back of the dorm and hands me a
piece of paper with a beautiful Indian woman on it and at
the bottom of the paper it reads"Shree Mataji Nirmala Devi.”
I couldn't believe my eyes. It felt like I was dreaming. I
was overwhelmed with inner joy. I couldn't believe that on
the same day that I longed to see Mataji's Face, here in my
very hands is a photo of not only Mother's Face, but Her
entire Body. Wow!
I was so excited that I shared my experience with Kenny who
is another brother here who is meditating and a seeker.
Kenny is a brother who Mother blessed me to give realization
to, but I am jumping ahead, so let me continue.
Along with seeing Shree Mataji Nirmala Devi's Face for the
first time, there was also a booklet with instructions on
how to raise your Kundalini, putting a protection around
your aura (bandhan) and information on Mother's life. That
same day I raised my Kundalini and while I raised my
Kundalini for the first time, Kenny walked by me and I said,
"Yo. Kenny, this is real. I can feel the energy.”Kenny
wasn't as enthusiastic as I was in the beginning, but Mother
kept working it all out and a couple of weeks after that,
Kenny received his Realization.
Slowly but surely Mother's presence was becoming stronger in
the dorm. Along with the booklet with information on Sahaja
Yoga and Mother, was a phone number. I fearlessly called it,
and Mother introduced me to Yogini Anna Mancini. I shared my
experiences with Anna and, without any judgment, she
welcomed me into the home of her heart unconditionally. Anna
began sending me more information on Sahaja Yoga and in this
information were other yogis' numbers.
I know I was feeling the impact of Mother's Love through the
vehicle of Her children. I had been in a lot of spiritual
circles before, but never had I been received by strangers
with such compassion. I began giving many Realizations and
having various spiritual experiences. Yogi Jerry suggested
that I start keeping a journal, and now Mother was giving me
external signs that She was guiding me.
One time I sent Mother a feather with a letter signed by
myself and the other yogis, and within two days a brother
here out of the blue hands me a feather. I know that was
Mother. Thank you, Shree Mataji. As my journey with Mother
and Sahaja Yoga intensified, the confirmations became
deeper.
Oh, Mother I am nothing. You are the Controller of
everything good.
As Anna kept sending me Sahaja Yoga literature, Mother began
giving me deeper clarity on my childhood mystical
experiences. One day while speaking to Yogini Jennifer on
the phone, I felt a pull on my Sahasrara and my being felt
like it grew a few feet. On the next day I went into one of
the papers on one of Mother's talks and She said that it was
a great sign when we, as yogis, feel a pull on our
Sahasraras. In fact, every time I have a profound
experience, as soon as I go to one of Mother's talks, there
is an explanation right there in black and white. In the
seven months that I have been in prison, it has been more
like a spiritual retreat with Shri Mataji and Sahaja Yoga,
with the exception of the few people that I have seen get
hurt. As the weeks have grown, the more I meditate, the more
Mother's Attention on me has become stronger and now when I
raise my Kundalini, I can feel it at least two feet above my
head. After doing three or four foot soaks a day, Mother has
given Her child the Cool Breeze vibrations. My hands went
from heavy, to hot, to tingling, to cool, light and
vibrated. Mother has blessed me to give at least eight
Realizations, and we Sahaja Yogis collectively meditate all
the time. There are at least six or seven altars here
dedicated to Mother.
I will be going home in two weeks and I am a little sad to
have to leave the other yogis. However, I feel totally
blessed to have been able to introduce over seventy-five
brothers to Mother's most Divine Face. The yogi's names are
yogi Pugz, Yogi Kenny, Yogi Black G-O-D, DC, Yogi Garnell
Jordan, Yogi Panama, Yogi Marcus Richard, Yogi Julio and my
name is Yogi Temba Spirit. Please continue giving us
bandhans.
Me to me pianka ta hu. That means"I love you"In Hindi.
Mother taught me that. Jai Shree Mataji! "
incredible isn't it???
after this he started to give realisation to people in jail
and this testimony went to a prison in Holland, where there
is also an important collective of Sahaja Yogis in
jail!!!!!!!!
Now he decided to dedicate his entire life to SY, he is a
singer, and wrote a song about SY for every one, you can
hear it on the CD he made, that you can get if you come at
the seminar in Paris, or we can send it to you maybe.
here comes the song:
SONG KUNDALINI
Here is the song of Temba; ancient inmate who discovered
Yoga in jail ;this song is to give realisation to the people
of the ghettos . It's belonging to everybody, yogis and non
yogis .
Other songs are following .
FIRST VERSE
IMAGINE CATS THAT MEDITATE WHILE TAKING A TRIP.PLEASE
BREATHE WITH ME
ITS' TIME FOR YOUR KUNDALINIS TO RISE.
HOMIES IN THE HOOD OPEN YOUR EARS AND LISTEN.PLEASE LET ME
BREAK IT DOWN SO YOU CAN SEE WHERE YOUR KUNDALINIS
POSITIONED.
IT'S A SCIENTIFIC FACT IT'S ALIGHNED AT THE BASE OF YOUR
SPINE,COILED ENERGY READY TO CLIMB.IN EVERY REAL GEE READY
TO SHINE
AGAIN.YO
I'M BEGGING YOU HOMIE BECOME DIVINE AGAIN.IT'S AN INHERITED
TALENT THAT
EVERY THUG HAS.TRANSFORM MY BROTHERS DON'T LET THIS LOVE
PASS.
FACE YOURSELF AND EMBRACE IT , ONLY REAL GEES WILL GET.EVEN
EASTSIDE GEES, THEM BLOOD BROTHERS WERE WITH IT.
IN THE MORNING ON RIKERS ISLAND(PRISON OF NEW
YORK)MEDITATING WITH BLOOD BROTHERS(BLOODS IS A STREET
GANG)IN SILENCE ,I REALLY RECOMMEND THAT YOU TRY THIS.
HOMIE USE TO BE VIOLENT ,NOW HE'S SATISFIED, SAW A PICTURE
OF
OUR MOTHER LOOKED INTO HER EYES..
WHEN MOTHER LOOKS INTO YOU,SEND HER
ENERGY THROUGH YOU.
IT'S A RAP HOMIE ,NOW YOUR BACK HOMIE ,CHANTING OM HOMIE,
NOT ALONE HOMIE, READY TO SAVE EVERY LITTLE KID IN THE
HOOD....
CHORUS
JUST LISTEN TO THE SCIENCE AT THE BASE OF YOUR SPINE ,IT'S
COILED ENERGY THE KUNDALINI READY TO CLIMB,READY TO OPEN
YOUR MIND DESIGHNED TO ALIGHN WITH YOUR DIVINITY..
CLOSE YOUR EYES THIS IS MEDITATION,FEELED WITH PURE LOVE
VIBRATIONS...MEDITATION, IN,
MEDITATION,OUT,MEDITATION ,PLEASE, MEDITATION,THANK YOU..
SECOND VERSE.
EVERY CHILD IN THE HOOD IS SEARCHING FOR SOMETHING THAT'S
ALREADY
THERE.
I KNOW RELIGION GOT YOU FOOLED WITH TRICKS.CAUCASION JESUS
BUT THEIR FOOLS
COULDN'T FOOL WITH THIS BLACK-ONE LIKE KRISNA ;
BETTER GET USE TO THIS..
CHILD OF THE GODDESS YOU'LL NEVER TRICK ME.I'M THE SPIRIT
THAT LIVES IN EVERY KID(CHILD)YOU'LL SEE. YOU CAN FEEL IT ON
YOUR FINGER TIPS.YOUR
KUNDALINI WILL SEND A MESSAGE TO YOUR SPIRIT, EVERYTIME THAT
YOUR EGO TRIPS..
SO STOP THE TRIPPIN AND START LIVING FOR REAL..TAKE JESUS OF
THE CHAIN ON YOUR NECK,AND PUT HIM IN BETWEEN YOUR EYES
,FORGIVE YOURSELF AND LET ME
KNOW HOW
YOU FEEL .
AND GOT A DIME BEEN A BROKE BROTHER.COME MEDITATE WITH ME
AND
OUR
MOTHER SHREE MATAJI .
IT'S GAURANTEED YOU'LL FLOAT BROTHER .
BACK TO
CHORUS..
THIRD VERSE
THE BOTTOM LINE YOU DIVINE,NO NEED TO STRUGGLE WITH IT.I
KNOW YOU
SHARED IT WITH YOUR HOMIES(FRIENDS)AND THEY WERE NOT WITH IT
.
MANY WERE CALLED . FEW WERE CHOSEN ,BUT FEWER WILL CHOOSE.
COME ,TAKE A JOURNEY WITH ME HOMIE YO TAKE OFF THEM
SHOES..YOU SEE THAT WOMAN ON THE C.D COVER?
SHE CAME TO ME WHEN I WAS IN PRISON .SHE TAUGHT ME TO
MEDITATE WHEN THERE WAS NO OTHER.
I PUT HER PICTURE ON MY LOCKER ,SHE PUT HER HAND ON THE TOP
OF MY HEAD ; THEM OTHER HOMIES STARTED WATCHING.
THAT'S WHEN MY MAN BUCKS WALKED BY THE BED ,I LOOKED INTO
HIS EYES AND GAVE HIM LOVE .
THIS WHAT I SAID : « KENNY I FEEL THE ENERGY RISING UP
THROUGH MY HANDS.I AM NOT PLAYING ; IT'S REALER THEN
ANYTHING I EVER HAD.THROUGH THE GRACE OF GOD TEMBA YO WAS
BORN AS A MAN .
BUT NOW I'M TEMBA SPIRIT HUMBLY ONE OF THE GODDESSES KIDS
.THAT'S ALL ; I AM NOTHING MORE THAN THAT .
JUST A DROP IN THE BUCKET SPEC IN THE PLAN, YO MY MAN CAN
YOU GET WITH
THAT.
TAUGHT BY THE BEST THOUGH.
CLOSE YOUR EYES OPEN YOUR EARS AND HEAR
THE WORDS OF OUR MOTHER'S FLOW..JAI....
-a gee : a person (slang word)
-in the hood : in the ghetto
-Caucasian Christ : White Christ (but black Krishna . Temba
wants to say God can have all the colours)
-homie:friend
so enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we can really take his work as an example, and we see how
deep and devoted he is!
JAI SHRI MATAJI
Testimony of Themba, an abused child and gang member
Dr. Balwinder: Posted: Fri Mar 25, 2005 10:41 pm
Thank you Gautum for this
wonderful post.
It really touches the heart and our spirits to see how
Mother reaches out to anyone who is seeking. The way and
place he obtained his SR and the subsequent transformation
to a deep and dedicated SYogi is nothing short of a miracle
in my eyes.
He has in a way shown (again and again) that it does not
matter who you are when spreading SY , what matters most is
your devotion and dedication and pure love. Temba now oozes
love for his brothers and sisters irrespective of whether
they are in SY.
The way he talks about Mother is truly touching and there is
no wonder that he could transform so many inmates before he
left.Remember the story usually told by Mother where She was
seated in a plane beside a lady who kept talking on and on
about her guru and Mother wandered why we SYogi/nis are
usually unable to do so. We need to take a leaf out of
Temba's book on this.
I must also commend the SYogi/nis who reached out to Temba
when he required guidance. It is something that needs to be
a norm all over the world because each and every one of us
is an ambassador of SY and HHSM.
Lastly i would love to purchase the CD and if anyone knows
where that can be done i would be grateful.
Balwinder
PS I was also surprised to know that Jesus Christ has been
coloured in some parts of the real world.It never occured to
me that it could be used as a obstacle in believing in
Christ.
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