"Join Mataji" 28/9/93!"Suddenly, out of nowhere, a thunderous voice bellowed, "JOIN SHRI MATAJI". It was a like a thunderclap that jerked him out of the drunken stupor into a awakened, shocked daze. He whirled around in disbelieve but there was no one around. The intensity and clarity of this Mighty Call penetrated and shook every nerve and fiber of his body. Where did this majestic voice come from? Who was it that spoke with such authority?"
The Divine Message on Tuesday night, jotted down "September 28, 1993",
was only found almost a year later.
But now we have to go back to the brilliant Montreal summer of 93 that brought an unusual gloom to Kash's father and, unknown to both parents, Lalita was incubating in her mother's womb despite their strict birth-control procedures.
But first a little family history is necessary.
In 1988 when Kash was eight his parents left Malaysia for Canada, where millions of immigrants toiled hard to accumulate wealth, status and success. In this land of milk and maple syrup all dreams were within reach. There were great expectations of instant happiness that this vast, wealthy nation would shower on those reaching its distant shores.
The euphoria of a materialistic lifestyle removed the last remaining traces of religiousness. The heart, mind, soul and sinew were harnessed for the sole purpose of hoarding wealth. Minimum wages brought instant happiness. A fifty cent raise brought glee and celebrations. High class Hindus slogged and sweated in dirty, menial jobs. Ugly, uneducated permanent status sons married fair, intelligent deshi daughters. Western-bred city sons argued with eastern village parents over money matters, and goaded even the aging to work, or dumped unproductive ones to fend for themselves. Women gossiped ceaselessly, constantly complaining about their husbands' beer bellies, bad breath, pig appetites, foul mouths and far filthier minds.
The opium of affluence had its price but its addictive high was so pleasurable and, certainly, most welcome. The flashing wheel of fortune kept everyone mesmerized with financial fantasies and erotic daydreams.
After a few years of materialistic pursuits and delicious indulgences in Canada the initial euphoria wore off — there was no gold at the end of the rainbow. Kash’s father had achieved his deepest desire and burning lifelong ambition: to take his family to a safe haven on Earth where they could live in peace, harmony, equality and, of course, wealth. The joy of life in Canada, one of the most blessed nation on Earth, came in ever-diminishing returns.
Then it began to dawn that genuine happiness was missing in one of the wealthiest country on Earth. Life began to lose its essence. There was an incomprehensible feeling of emptiness, of nothingness, of uselessness. The realization came that life, even if cherished to the fullest, was futile if it all ended with the parting of loved ones. Existence was useless if it ended and faded into nothingness. It just made no sense.
In early 1993 Kash’s father knew that he had reached the end of life’s journey, and began a journey of self-introspection to search for the meaning of life. "Why was he on Earth?" "What was he born for?" "Why is there death?" "Is it the end of all existence?" "Why are humans in a constant state of struggle for power and possessions?" "Why is the vast majority under constant subjugation?" "Why are billions striving and suffering?" "Why so much hate, violence and unhappiness in the lands of plenty?" "Why so many tears, anguish and sufferings in the lands of less?" "Why all these ceaseless confusions, delusions and illusions?" "Why all these religions of division, differences and hate?" "Why all these different Allahs, Gods and Prabhus?" "What is the Truth?" "Who knows this Truth?" "Where is this Truth?" "How to reach this Truth?"
Unknown to him, this was the first stirring of the human soul, trying to break free from the bondage of the body. A being was questioning and answering to his own Self: "No! This is not Reality."
And Lalita was in the warm womb of her mother, her unknown birth setting forth the first subtle waves of Divine Consciousness in her physical creators. (At the tender age of four Lalita astounded his father when she declared that her First Mother was Shri Mataji, her earthly mother being second. In other words her Spiritual Mother was Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi while her physical mother was Srender Kaur. But what she actually wanted to say was that the Great Adi Shakti Shakti was her Primordial Mother since countless billions of years ago, while Srender Kaur was her present mother only since 1994.)
After months of fruitless, frustrating searching he surrendered himself and begged the Divine to quench his ever-increasing thirst for Truth.
There was only a painting of Guru Gobind Singh (the tenth Sikh guru) hanging on the wall, and this request was vaguely directed through him. At this moment God Almighty was not distorted by any religious conditioning or dogma. Whoever, whatever, or wherever the Supreme Creator was, He, and He alone, should provide the answer. No minor godlings of the religious regimes were to answer this call.
The Almighty Maker was not called upon in the belief or hope that HE was actually going to respond. It was just an act of sheer desperation, an overwhelming helplessness arising from life’s emptiness, religious deception, and the physical futility of struggling to survive, only to meet eventual death and nothingness. There was never any expectation of an answer. The Almighty Creator was believed to be a sort of a mysterious, aloof Supreme Being exclusively owned by one, some, all, or maybe, none of these institutionalized religions. Anywhere, what expectations of an answer was there for a sinner who had stopped entering His temples a long time ago?
Despite his dilemma he refused to seek Him in any of His Houses of Worship. How could the Almighty Creator exist in these putrid pools of organized hypocrisy and institutionalized falsehood? Can't He be found anywhere else? Why does He force humans to seek Him only in these decadent derelicts professing His exclusive Grace? In which particular one, then, does He reside? What proof do the guardians of these brick and mortar Idols have to convince the religious herd that by praying and prostrating inside their sprawling religious ranches, God Almighty will be found?
However, if He did indeed exist in any of them it would have been the most heart-wrenching and utterly agonizing answer. The Almighty Creator would not have been able to answer one question: How is it possible that He favored any religious regime that denied His other Messengers? No! That would not have been the Ultimate Reality (Al-Haqqah)! Then he had to be false. Then he had to be the 'lesser god' worshipped by existing religious prisoners — a prabhu, a yahweh, a god, an allah, a buddha, a waheguru. And Kash's father would have to again abandon these minor gods and continue the search for the Absolute Truth, the Divine World of Reality that would destroy all doubts, discrepancies, delusions, and darkness.
Only God Almighty would be able to account for all the Messengers sent down to Earth. His Religion had to be Universal, preached by all His Messengers and found in all His Holy Scriptures. He had to be the Ultimate Reality. His Truth had to be All Pervading, All Encompassing, Unchangeable, Indestructible, Flawless and Absolute.
This spiritual song imploring God Almighty to remove the veil of ignorance was sung again, and again, and again:
O Ek suki yaha lakoh mein.
O Only one in a hundred thousand is in bliss.
Ansoo hai croroh ankhoh mein.
There are tears in millions and millions of eyes.
Hum neh gin gin har takdir dekhi.
I have counted and seen every fate for years,
Ek hasta hai dush rote hai
Only one soul laughs while ten are in tears.
Kuch bhol Prabhu yeh kya Maya
O! Speak Almighty God what is this Illusion,
Tera khel samaj meh nah aya
Your Divine Play is all confusion and delusion.
For weeks Brahman was asked, amid a profusion of tears, to reveal the Truth. Repeatedly He was implored to answer the meaning of life, creation, and this useless, empty human existence. Above all, He was begged for the Truth that would destroy the falsehood that the religious regimes had deluded him and the rest of humanity. What was desired was the Absolute Truth of the Absolute Creator, not the conflicting gods of various organized religions. Any god that could not explain and account for the other Messengers was not God. Any yahweh that only cared for his kind was not Yahweh. Any allah that had only one messenger was not Allah. Any prabhu that was found only in a single scripture was not Prabhu.
The Supreme Creator had to be the Lord of all Messengers and Prophets that came on Earth. His Truth had to be found in all Scriptures that humans possessed. His Reality had to be Absolute, Irrefutable, and All Compassing. Then, and only then, will He be acknowledged as GOD THE ALMIGHTY.
The answer did not take too long.
Late afternoon on September 28, 1993 Kash's father started his usual drinking binge and by nightfall was really inebriated.
His children were fast asleep and wife still at work. He switched his stereo system and began listening to Kitaro, his favorite new age musician. This soothing New Age CD of harmony with Nature increased his sense of serenity, reflecting and complementing the stillness of the night. Nothing stirred. With eyes closed in deep inner peace and relaxation, he was completely at peace with himself and Earth. In this thoughtless trance-like stupor he drifted slowly into deep sleep.
He had no idea how long he was in that intoxicated sleep.
Suddenly, out of nowhere, a thunderous voice bellowed, "JOIN SHRI MATAJI." It was a like a thunderclap that jerked him out of the drunken stupor into a awakened, shocked daze. He whirled around in disbelieve but there was no one around. The intensity and clarity of this Mighty Call penetrated and shook every nerve and fiber of his body. Where did this majestic voice come from? Who was it that spoke with such authority?
The mind reeled in reverence to this divine message that had come like a massive bolt of Cosmic Consciousness. It was an awesome, extraordinary call for no power on Earth could have had that force of awakening a sleeping drunk.
Despite his intoxicated state he knew that this message had to be remembered at all costs. There was a force in it that jolted his numbed senses to act immediately, lest the sheer strength of intoxication would reel him back into hapless lethargy and deep sleep. His heavily smashed state of mind ruled out any hope of remembrance. The only way was to somehow jot it down on something.
He managed to stagger to the kitchen table, take out his purse, and write down the message and date on a calling card (the date took a considerable time to confirm.) The exact words written down were: 'Join Mataji 28/9/93.' He was confident that in the morning he would come across this card and find out who this Mataji (Mother) was.
Morning arrived, accompanied by a huge hangover.
But a strange thing happened. For some reason his body suddenly rejected cigarettes. Incredible as it seemed he just could not smoke anymore, accomplishing overnight what he had struggled — between intermittent burst of inspired determination and New Year resolutions — to kick this addiction for more than twenty-five years! He just could not understand why his body was suddenly rejecting cigarettes for no obvious reason.
Nonetheless he was proud of having done the almost impossible. This time he was certain that he would never smoke again.
The Call of the previous night was completely forgotten. There was not a single recollection of what had transpired just hours ago.
Such memory loss took place on certain occasions when the amount of alcohol exceeded his body’s capacity to cope up. It then supplied just the bare necessities to function — a sort of emergency power during an electrical failure — just sufficient to continue slaking the desire for more alcohol.
The card with the scribbled mighty message, misplaced within some photos in the wallet, was completed forgotten. There it lay for nearly a year till September 5, 1994. Until then there was absolutely no knowledge of what had transpired on that fateful night of September 28, 1993.
Though his father had forgotten the Mighty Message there was no stopping Shri Janma-mrtyu-tapta-jana-visranti-dayini Devi. 1 She had to awaken the seeker who had earlier beseeched with all his heart and soul for the Truth. The Great Primordial Mother had to fulfill Her unconditional, time-honored promise to rescue any human who, tired of earthly illusion and delusion, cries to Her for help.
On September 5, 1994, while spring-cleaning his wallet he came across this particular calling card with that peculiar note, "Join Mataji." He recognized that it was his handwriting. For a few seconds he remained puzzled, unable to understand this strange note. Why should he write such a short, strange statement in the first place? How did it come into his purse? And when did all this happen? For a minute or two there was no answer.
Then suddenly his mind reeled as the magnitude of the Revelation hit him like a tsunami wave: That was the night he was completely drunk! That was the night he heard the Mighty Voice! That was the night he stumbled and struggled to jot the Message down! That was the night that he did not want to forget! That was the night he never remembered.
Then his mind, that impish little ego, began its dance of doubt: Maybe you were really drunk. Maybe you really heard voices. Maybe it was your imagination. Who would actually say these words, "JOIN SHRI MATAJI"? Why, in the first place, convey a message when one is dead drunk?
There had to be a mistake. It could not be possible true. It made no sense.
The more the mind rationalized the more agitated it became. Soon the placid waters of the mind became turbulent. Not only the ego questioned but it also answered the very questions that it pretended not to know. The thoughtless state became increasing agitated, even as it tried to bring calm to chaos.
It failed and the mind began to be confused and bewildered by its own question-answer-counter- question-counter-answer state. No matter how much it tried to rationalize it failed to arrive at a conclusion; there was always another fact or speculation to contradict the last answer. Kash, the only person with the Darshana to extract Truth from within himself, was still in school.
Waiting became torturous as the father paced the floor and tossed around in bed. He had to have the Truth of that fateful night that triggered his awesome journey to seek the Divine World of Reality. The Manna Monsoon was still lashing around in all its fury, rattling the shuttered windows of his mundane mind, occasionally ripping off a plank or two. It would only be a matter of time before all traces of past ignorance be completely washed away by the Divine Flood of Collective Consciousness.
But at this stage this furious Celestial Thundershower was far from abating, and right now he had to know what happened on September 28, 1993. Who was the Caller that directed him to join Shri Mataji?
After what seemed like ages Kash returned from school. Immediately the father explained the entire episode and told him to right away ask the Great Adi Shakti whether this voice was real or just a figment of his imagination.
Kash went directly into the meditation room and sat in Sahaj Samadhi, and reach the Land of Eternal Light. The Everlasting Light shone ever so brightly and brilliantly above the Eternal Throne as Shri Mahaganesha-nirbhinna-vighna-yantra- praharsita Shri Nirmala Devi sat in Bliss and Joy. He bowed down to the Great Adi Shakti and asked Her about the call that his father had heard commanding him to join Her.
Shri Srutih Shri Nirmala Devi smiled and replied that it was true that his father had heard that Voice, which was that of Shri Ganesha! God Almighty had sent His reply through Shri Gauriputraya, the Son of the Great Divine Mother, to remove the veil of ignorance and direct him to the Supreme Source of spiritual enlightenment. The particular Shri Mataji whom Shri Ganesha had meant on September 28, 1993, and subsequently identified by Kash after getting his Self-Realization later in November 1993, was none other than His Divine Mother, the Great Adi Shakti Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi.
His father was stunned speechless and the Truth hit like a thunderclap. The intensity of Shri Mataji’s Revelation and the identification of the Caller could not be accepted with calmness and detachment. The Spiritual Rain camouflaged the tears that begun to flow profusely again. Asking for forgiveness was pointless. It was far better to be forever silenced by humility, and be rewarded in return, with loss of ego.
All the wealth of this Earth would never equal this priceless Absolute Truth that it was Shri Ganesha, the Remover of All Obstacles, who had spoken the Divine Words, "JOIN SHRI MATAJI!" The Eternal Child had commanded the seeker who had cried out for the Truth of God Almighty to join His Mother, the Great Primordial Mother who had incarnated on Earth as Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi. This priceless Call also announced this Supreme Truth to all followers of the Sanatana Dharma: Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi is the Divine Mother of Shri Ganesha — This Revealed Truth is Absolute.
Ganesha and His Mother,
the Great Adi Shakti Shri
Mataji Nirmala Devi
Janma-mrtyu-jara-tapta-jana-visranti-dayani (851st): To those devotees who are consumed by the evils of life, death, and old age, She is the harbinger of peace and solace by endowing them with true knowledge of their selves.
with Shri Ganesha and His
Mother, the Great Adi
Shakti Shri Mataji Nirmala
Mahaganesa-nirbhinna-vighna-yantra-praharsita (78th): She was delighted at Sri Ganesa destroying the impediments (Yantra) to Her success. Gana means group. The group here meant is 24 Tattvas. The pure mind is the lord of this group. So Sri-Ganesa here means divinised Mind who is Siva Himself. The devotee faces various obstacles created by his Dvaita-Bhava, in his Sadhana and Sri Lalita enables the devotee to get over them by Her cosmic presence everywhere, including his body. Cf. Lalitopakhyana — destruction of ‘Jayavighna Yantra’ by Ganesa.
QUOTES OF SHRI MATAJI
Sri Mataji Nirmala Devi
Importance Of Self-Realization, Delhi, India — February 8, 1983
“Shri Ganesha looks after the protocol of His Divine Mother. . . . He enters into the human intellect and imbibes the qualities of reverence. He gives the Light of Wisdom to egoistical intellectuals when they bow to His innocence. He enters into the superego when He is prayed to by people who are conditioned and suppressed. He kills the demons or evil forces that are overpowering the seekers."
Sri Mataji Nirmala Devi
“There are also many, many people who have given up their bad habits of smoking, drinking and drugs, sometimes overnight. So many people who were drug addicts have given up drugs because they have found that of the Spirit within themselves that helps them to enjoy their own being and also gives them Power to stop running after these enjoyments which are very, very transitory, have bad reactions, and are destructive in the long run. It is not a rational or mental understanding, but the Light of the Self which gives Power and expels darkness spontaneously."
Sri Mataji Nirmala Devi
ADDITIONAL QUOTES“Some great voice is waiting to be heard which will usher in the sacred light of truth in the dark hours of the nightmare of politics, the voice which will proclaim that 'God is over all,' and exhort us never to covet, to be great in renunciation that gives us the wealth of spirit, strength of truth, leads us from the illusion of power to the fullness of perfection, to the Santam, who is peace eternal, to the Advaitam, who is the infinite One in the heart of the manifold. But we in India have not had the chance.”
I do hope that your newspaper will acquaint the Hindus living away from India with the source of Hindu Dharma and not only to the mythological information about it. The Vedas, the Upanishads and the Bhagavad Geeta are the source of Hindu Dharma. The homogeneous wholeness of cosmic life, the mysterious, interrelatedness of all things and beings inhabiting the planet, the divinity and sacredness of life and the built-in equal status of all living beings obliging us to have reverence for life, are some of the salient characteristics of our Vedic heritage.
The Hindus who have gone abroad with the sole purpose of acquiring money and physical comforts must be made aware that dedication to atma-paramatma — the existential essence of life — is the ultimate purpose of human life. Instead of aping and imitating non-Indian ways of life, they should carry the torch of Vedic culture to all parts of the globe.”
Vimala Thakar, Himachal Pradesh, India
Hinduism Today, February 1994
“Some clergy are making the provocative suggestion that Christians should abandon the idea of "one true faith" altogether. "We don't have a monopoly on God's truth," says Anglican Bishop Michael Ingham. "Jesus encountered people of other faiths respectfully." In his just-published book, Mansions of the Spirit, the Vancouver cleric calls for a new vision of a God who reveals himself in all the great religions. Adds Ingham: "The task of Christianity today is to remove some of its inflated claims for itself." "
Maclean's (December 15, 1997)
“Even before I thought about my psychic ability, I used to think a lot about the existence of God. Although I was raised Catholic and attended nine years of Catholic school, I found the Catholic view of God to be too limited and unrealistic. We had to believe in a deity on blind faith, and that confused me all the more. I was plagued with questions like: How do we know God really exists? Has anyone ever seen God? How does God make things from nothing? Who wrote the stories in the Bible, and are they true?
As much as I wanted to believe in the God molded by the rituals and laws of the Church, I did not feel a personal experience of God inside me. Was my duty simple to live out this daily ceremony? I felt I was missing a piece of the puzzle. Had the nuns kept something from me? Did I miss something at mass that everyone lese had picked up on? Was I the only one to question their beliefs? The request seemed simple enough in my young mind: If there is a God, please show me proof.”
James Van Praagh, Talking To Heaven,
Penguin Books Ltd., 1997 p. 6-7.
Those, upon whom He casts His Glance of Grace come to meet the Guru. Shedding the residues of their sinful mistakes...
This world is asleep in emotional attachment to Maya. Forgetting the Naam, the Name of the Lord, it ultimately comes to ruin.
The One who put it to sleep shall also awaken it. Through the Guru's Teachings, understanding dawns.
One who drinks in this Nectar shall have his delusions dispelled. By Guru's Grace, the state of liberation is attained.
Sri Guru Granth Sahib (Maajh, Third Mehl, p. 111-12.
“This world is afflicted by many accumulated layers of sin and delusion, and most people are not in touch with their original, true selves. God cannot easily be felt or experienced; the truth cannot easily be understood or practiced. Without God and the guidance of truth, the mind is rudderless, drifting aimlessly in a sea of vain desires and false conceptions. In such a condition, even the best efforts at spiritual growth may fail. Yet time and again God reveals himself to those who seek him in faith.”
World Scripture, IRF, Paragon House Publishing, 1995, p. 535.
“Although God, it was believed, had no need to become incarnate and did not take any animal or human form, nevertheless one quality is assumed for the purpose of revelation, that of speech. In this respect, in Sikhism God is saguna as well as nirguna [1:75], a personal God, the divine Guru and inner teacher. Whoever becomes aware of the inner activity of God as Guru, and responds to that voice by obedient living, attains spiritual liberation while in this present body. The effects of karma have still to be worked out but no more karma will be accumulated. At death the spirit will live in divine presence, never to be reincarnated. Effort cannot induce this immanent revelation, it is a sovereign act of God's will, an act of divine grace.”
A Handbook of Living Religions.
John R. Hinnells, Penguin Books, 1991, p. 249.
“GRACE: Most religions recognize that, due to humanity's fallen and degraded condition, it is difficult if not impossible for an individual to attain the goal and purpose of life unaided. In fact, help is available; God's grace is sufficient support for people on the journey of faith. The scriptures often emphasize the priority of divine grace; it is present even before a person responds, eliciting faith in those who otherwise would have no clue of how to escape their mean lot...
Grace is entirely God's initiative, given to people regardless of their attitude or merit. Furthermore, God's grace far overshadows the merit gained by good works; indeed, nothing can come of a person's good works or austerities endured for the purpose of salvation, in the absence of divine grace. God's grace is also described as sufficient, regardless of the person's burden or strength to bear it."
World Scripture, IRF, Paragon House Publishing, 1995, p. 360-61.